hypocrisy has so long and successfully covered
That they may judge of the magnitude
of your unworthy conduct towards me, it
is necessary to state some short sketch of
my life, before I had the misfortune of knowing you.
My father was a gentleman of a
good family, and possessed an hereditary
landed property, which, as he had no son,
myself and two sisters naturally were the
but those expectations were early
blasted by the mismanagement of my unhappy
parent; his estate was sold, charged with a moderate fortune for
myself and sisters, and a sum of money for him to purchase an annuity.
With this arrangement I was content, nor did I then feel the loss of fortune,
having a happy home in the house of my maternal uncle, a numerous circle of agreeable
acquaintances and many kind friends, all the pleasures which youth and cheerfulness could enjoy,
but this, like other happy periods of my life was of short duration, as my father about two years
after the sale of his estate, having also sold his annuity, had spent the money, and was in want
of immediate assistance: in this his distress no one afforded him the least relief, no single soul
I gave him all I could for his present wants, and then began to reflect what
I should do to support him and myself in future.
Private theatricals had long been the fashion,
and performances of that sort had constituted one of my principal amusements. The friends who were
acquainted with the little talents I possessed, advised me to try the stage.
I did so,
and met with all the success I could reasonably hope
for, in point of emolument certainly
beyond what I felt I deserved. In a short time I realized a property sufficient for all the
reasonable wants of life, besides being enabled to allow my father a yearly income.
After performing for three years in various theatres in England, and two whole seasons at Edinburgh,
I returned to Dublin where I made a permanent engagement for years.
As I would avoid speaking of myself further than this address to you renders necessary,
I pass over all such private events of my life, as might oblige me to name persons who,
though they have treated me harshly, I
do not with to mention, but you, Madam, were well informed of those calamitous occurrences that
had befallen me before our acquaintance.
The first winter of my Dublin engagement I became acquainted with Mr. G—, whom I had known
slightly at Bath, where I had performed the former winter,
A strong and perhaps fatal attachment united
us; on my part I do not scruple to acknowledge I sacrificed more than prudence can excuse: the resentment
of my relatives was, and is to this day implacable, by which I have lost the share of a considerable
property on the death of my before mentioned uncle.
To the distressing circumstances which attended my
union with Mr.G. I had nothing to oppose but that happiness which I possessed to the extreme.
In my domestic enjoyments you found me, as you too well were convinced of, in the possession of as
great a portion of content as this life can be supposed to have, yet it alone